Hazaaron khwaahishen aisi

I Wish.....................................

While going through the blogs of one of my friend(Gari) i came across one of her blog "Khwahishon Ke Per ". Ialso realised that i always had some desires and have many now as well. Here i am jotting some of my wishes:

1. I wish and always wished that i was a good dancer. This wish of mine still remains the same. even my in laws now know that i like dance(but i can't dance as i don't know how o dance) as they have to bear all the reality dance shows with me.
2. I always wish to learn benzo and Guitar.
3. I wish to see the whole world with Kapil.
4. I wish to learn "How to cook better than your Mom - in - law" as she is only one whose cooking is liked by Kapil.
5. I wish to hear everyday from kapil that "aaj sabzi bahut acchi thi" :D
6. I wish to hear from my in laws that "You are the best Bahu in the world".
7. I wish to hear from my parents that "You are the best daughter and the best - est sis of this UNIVERSE".
8. I wish that Kapil get somewhat more Romantic and moreover he learn how to express his love(ofcourse to me :) ); as he is not at all expressive.
9. I wish to have a big , beautiful house of my own which is always full of love and fun.
10. I wish (and always used to wish) to be thinner.
11. I wish to be more confident.
12. I wish that my best friends and me stay in same city.
13. I wish to live the same life of bachelarhood and that too in Mumbai with the same frineds and the life again in that way.
14. I wish to buy a Car for my parents.
15. I wish (and always wished) that i had a gadget which can take me to my parents within seconds and back to my place again in seconds. i wish the same now so that i can be with my parents in seconds and than come back to be with kapil in seconds.
16. I wish i had a Ginnie who will make all my wishses come TRUE...

So here are some of wishes and many more remaining........................

Why........

Marriage is an important institution of life; i agree. but why is it so that one needs to change a lot after marriage. Moreover why is it that a girl need to change the most and need to do all the adjustments. She is the one who has to leave her home and come to a new place amongst new people and have to live with them taking care of their feelings... And still she is the one who is being blamed not to take care of the other person feeling and is being made culprit of entering their so called space. Why is it that the girls are not allowed to come to home late nite and boys are being allowed to do so... Why is it being expected that if a girl is being asked a question then she has to answer it; but the same is not applicable for the boys... In general also When we say that girls and boys are same then why is that boys are allowed to one thing and the same thing is being debarred for the girls... this does not show the equality between the two gender. Why is it that a girls mother is more worried about her marriage rather than a boy's mother... Just think why...................

Ma...

When we were kids ; we were with our parents and at that time we felt as if why does our Mom always keep us saying what to do and what not to do... She told us what is right and what is wrong for us; she was always there at our side ; but at that time we felt as if why does she always keep on saying us what to do and what not to do. we are grown up and can take care of ourself. But now; when I am married , far far away from my mom i miss her a lot... Now there is no one in front of whom I can cry( and she wont scold me for this). Now there is no one on whose lap i can keep my head down and feel myself protected from the world. Now there is no one to tell me what to do and what not to do (she is there on phone, but still .....) . Miss You Ma... Miss you a lot and i must tell that I really really Love you and will always love you. Thanks For being my Ma , world's best-est Ma .... Love You Ma :)

About Kapil

I am a girl who has been waiting for my marriage since my childhood; the girl who has always dream t about a boy with whom she will marry; a boy who will take care of her, and will always be there when she will need someone. The person who has who has taken up this place (and must say that has filled the place in the best way someone can fill it) is Kapil :). We met on 9th Feb 2008 (totally arranged set up) ; In the first impression I felt that he would not agree to marry me (as he is too tall to marry me :) ) and i also didnt like this arrange marriage set up so was very angry with ma-pa for the same. Finally We got married after a long courtship of 10 months. Now after being married for about 15 months; i must say (seeing that Kapil is not reading this blog) that he is the best person for me. Nobody other then him wud have been able to handle me :D Shikha's (pls... read this as plural as they are 2 in no) used to say

How will some one be able to handle you. tu jab dekho tab roti rehti hain; har choti baat pe bhi. tera pati toh tujhe kaise sambahlega; bechara pagal ho jaega Today i am happily announcing that Kapil has improved a lot in handling my rona :D . Haan!! he does not like me crying aur whenever i cry (as i always do for very small small things) he does get angry with me; but the next moment he is there pampering me as a child so that i can stop crying. We do fight (must say like cats and dogs); but the next moment after the fight he is there chilling me down and me as usual showing my tantrums to him.... so that's it. this is my Kapil....

My First Blog....

From the day i have been child; I was somewhat not so expressive. i usually was not able to express my feelings (the bad ones) to anyone and used to write it to a diary which allowed to throw away all my anger and frustration. As got married ; this habit began to disappear leaving me nothing other than Kapil on whom i can pour down my anger and frustration :).

I have been thinking of blogging my views and my feeling so that atleast Kapil can get an escape my anger and frustration being poured down to him. So here i am trying to blog my feelings.